Monday, August 25, 2008

hormanal t-girl seeks large shotgun ;)

I'm sitting here doing 'square breathing' in order to keep from snapping and killing someone today...
  • breathe in for 4 heartbeats...
  • hold and center for 4 heartbeats...
  • breathe out for 4 heartbeats...
  • hold and center for 4 heartbeats..
Listen to the music and be at one with the universe ... don't kill people... don't kill people... don't kill people ... ok you can just maim someone today ... we'll call it a 12 step program ;) LOL

Seriously though... I don't ever recall really just waking up in a truly foul mood and not being able to recover from it before going on hormones! I know that the 'male' brain tends to have more of the 'make you happy' chemicals in it than the 'female' brain, but I'm just downright bitchy today! Thankfully I've managed to restrain myself from unloosing the fury on someone, but dios mio! It does make you wonder if your brain actually changes or if I'm just being hormonal. ;) Oh well sorry to waste a post on my bitchiness ...

ttfn,
Maddy

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Death of a Hero


Last night I got one of those calls that no-one ever likes to receive. My great-uncle Harold DeHart died. :( He is one of my greatest heros! He and my Aunt Dinky have always looked after me (since I came to the Triangle Area to go to school in '92).



On top of just being a stand-up guy, he is one of the most self-made people I've ever met! He is brilliant, dedicated to learning, and extremely curious about how things work! He has something like 5 patents to his name, the last being this nifty little combination table / dishwasher contraption for dorm rooms, apartments, and retirement homes. Check it out at: http://au-dine.net/index.html. Besides all that he taught himself to play the piano and violin!

Unfortunately I haven't done the greatest job of staying in touch these past few years, but I will always remember him and admire him for the impression he has made on me! Uncle Harold, I love you and hope you're doing well in the ever after!

Maddy

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Pure Magic


Everyone once in a while I come across something so special and magical that I sometimes wonder if it really happened or if I was dreaming. This last weekend was one of those times! I was up in beautiful Hot Springs, NC at a Kindred Spirits Gathering, and WOW was it totally awesome!!!

I have heard about gatherings from different friends through the years, and had always wanted to go to one, but never had the opportunity until this weekend! I've also been practicing my own little branch of Wicca (a Nature Based Spirituality) ever since I left the Christian church in high-school. (I got tired of going to hell simply because I'm different). Unfortunately though I've had very little opportunity to share my spirituality with anyone and have often felt the loss the kinship that arises from a mutual understanding of something bigger than myself. Although I should mention that I have recently found a welcoming group of people in the Unitarian Universalist Fellowship of Raleigh, where they accept people of all races, genders, creeds, and forms of spirituality. :)

Needless to say, I jumped at the chance to take part in the gathering when my friend, Terri told me about it. The deal was sealed when I got to meet one of the leaders of the western NC group, Holly Boswell. I knew immediately that I was in for something special. It must have been the air of presence and caring that follows her everywhere she goes! :)

Well, I couldn't have been more surprised and impressed with what I found when I got there!
Everyone was SO kind, sincere, open, and welcoming! From the opening ceremony I knew that I was in for a treat! First of all, almost everyone there was trans! Second, everyone was there with the sole intent of taking part in this special event with every part of their being! And it was truly special!

The entire 4 day weekend (Thursday - Sunday) was spent in such an actively relaxed fashion! There were several traditional pagan circle-type rituals, all of which were centered on personal growth, healing, sharing, and listening to our intuition. The most impressive and intense of which was the circle held on top of a bald mountain with a complete 360 view of the Blue Ridge Mountains!!! We did several shamanic journeys with Rick and Annasara Fire. (who have to be the absolute cutest couple I've seen in quite a while!) :) The sheer amount of intense, spiritual, and even supernatural experiences was quite overwhelming!

There was nature walks, frolicking in the Laurel river, and recuperating in the famous hot springs. We ate tons of fantastic vegetarian food cooked by our hosts at the wonderfully quaint and welcoming Sunnybank Inn too! Elmer Rocks, and you just can't say enough about his hospitality!!! When we weren't doing structured events, there was lots of getting to know each other, drum circles, story-telling by the campfire under a full moon (awesome!), yoga in the yard at dawn, oh and yeah we did actually get some sleep too! :) LOL!

I would HIGHLY recommend this for ALL people of a spiritual leaning, especially those who are TG and who are looking for something that uplifts and celebrates them for who they are! I for one will remember this forever and will DEFINITELY be back every year that I can possibly make it!

"Hello" and "Love You" to all my new friends! :)
Maddy

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Maddy Speaks Up

Hello Everyone,

You may or not be aware of the fact that, aside from the many things I do, I'm also a member of the Human Rights Campaign's Board of Governors (http://www.hrc.org). Obviously, therefore I support HRC in it's fight for ALL of our rights, especially my trans brothers, sisters, and everyone else in-between. ;)

I'm not one for confrontation though, so I usually avoid engaging when people are being silly or just plain bitchy. Occasionally though I'll see something that just doesn't make sense. Recently I received an email on the Cyndi's Circle list denouncing HRC for it's recent statement to the National Platform Drafting committee of the Democratic National Convention (http://www.hrcbackstory.org/2008/08/hrc-legislative.html) .

Here is my reply:
Dear Cyndi,

Thanks for sending this out! I'm very excited about the recent activity in Congress concerning our rights as Transgender Americans! I'm a little perplexed by your blowing this off and then stating that "actions speak louder than words" though.

Maybe it's just me, but it seems that our voice as trans people is being heard by HRC, and that we are seeing "actions" on their part. This latest hearing is a good example. Another great examply is the recent hearing on "transgender issues" (http://www.hrcbackstory.org/2008/06/wow-rachel-and.html) in which HRC Business council members Diego Sanchez testified in person and Meghan Stabler testified in writing.

As a trans-woman, I personally applaud every organization willing to stand in front of our nation's government and fight for our rights, regardless of mistakes they may have made in the past. Shouldn't we all applaud and encourage more of this behavior from HRC, rather than denouncing them for their efforts?

Sincerely,
Madeline Goss
Proud Trans Woman and member of the HRC Board of Governors
Makes sense to me. :)
Maddy